Only As Sick
Your'e only as sick as the secrets you keep
Your's only as sick as the things that you cling to and refuse to leg go of
The Trauma you have went through does not define you
Your'e only as sick as the Trauma that you refuse to process, only as sick as the Trauma you cling to
You are not the Trauma itself, the Trauma is an experience, a very bad experience.
You are only as sick as the Shame you bathe in, and the Trauma that led you there.
You are only as sick as the coping mechanisms you employ that are as malignant and evil as the Trauma that led you there.
Nothing, behaviorally or materially can ever fill the holes left within you. It must be accepted, without any shred of denial. Because not accepting this, will leave you as one of the real walking dead.
The Trauma altered you, maybe it modified you, maybe it has rewired you.
The Trauma is not the core of you, the core of your soul.
The Trauma is NOT YOUR IDENTITY and it never will be.
Shit has happened, things went down, that some... thankfully may never ever live through... that can only fail to even begin to believe could ever happen to people.
The wounds will heal, but the scars will forever remain. This is merely the remnants of the damage done, but it should never be defined or seen as ruination.