When Noisey released this interview along with the corresponding videos about Mike Ferraro and Judge, I must say it is beyond priceless, quality, media that stands head and shoulders above my own expectations about Mike and Judge. This is a gift that will forever keep on giving. Thank Mike F. and Noisey, as well as doublecross webzine. Truly monumental.
How much did MikeF judge impact my life... ** IMMENSELY!**
In the videos on of things that Mike says is that he was always a "Knock Around guy", oh man, as Col. Kurtz says in "Apocalypse Now"... "Like a diamond shot right through the forehead". It stirs up seriously strong emotions from way way deep down.
He digs Neil Young, and David Bowie and yet was singer for Judge. Awesome. He endured he is still around....
He Survived, and is the consummate Survivor.
In all of my life he is responsible for penning some of my most fave song lyrics of all time
"Just Like You" - The most simplistic, but most truthful lyrics that I ever heard still to this day.
"I've Lost" - The most emotional and hurt filled soulful |
"Hear Me" - For those with trauma, ptsd, and anxiety from the shit that they experienced and that went down within their collective lives. |
"Where it went" -- About the clinging for too long, and the depression that comes with this clinging, and the loss of friendships and relationships that in the end all humans succumb to at one point or another.
Mike is from NJ.
The cover of bringin it down -- The picture of Porcelly on his knees with his guitar just crushing it. And the Crossed Hammers, the ultimate in bad ass symbolism. It just clicked, as in this is me, no doubt about it.
And after all that time he came out and expressed himself at length.
Priceless... I owe so much... that can never be repaid.
You can laugh, but I just look. with Derision.
In the 90s and throughout the next 20 years, Mike was a legend but no one really knew shit about him. But musically and lyrically, I knew way deep down, that I could identify and on varying levels dealt with a lot of the shit he went through in life.
Although at various times in my life, mainly in the context of my different careers, vocations, and professions, I did successfully and honorably become sociable to a degree, I'm still at the most intimate depths of my persona remain socially awkward, emotionally intense and quite the introvert, or maybe it's best to say that I am quite introverted.
I used to become Ziggy Stardust, or Dwid Hellion or Mike Judge at times, literally without drugs, this music could raise my state of consciousness... in very palpable and concrete sense.
I was first lent the album and 7 inches of Judge by a friend of mine Inti, a young Sardo
dude at the time of a spry and angst ridden 18 years old, when I was living in San Sperate
Sardinia in the United States Air Force. The second I heard Mike's singing, I was completely fucking blown away, it was truly the way I felt in the deepest depths of the four chambers of my Heart! He is and was always the best Hardcore vocalist period, his voice and the way he sings would make me want to tear shit apart, and then seconds later put me in such an emotional state where I thought I would flat out melt down into tears and unbridled fucking sorrow. But even more importantly were the lyrics to all of Judge's songs, so succinct, so simple yet some of the most powerful words that I have ever read in my half a century on this planet bar none. You can laugh, you say "What the fuck is wrong with this guy" he is 51 years old and talking about this like a long lost love or a full blown spiritual awakening or some shit. He truly must have issues.
You know what "Oh, fucking well, man, it is what it is" and I am gonna stand by these words and this post and what is being expressed in it. Judge saved my life, and blew my mind, altered my consciousness, and at many deep dark and truly tumultuous moments in my life. This positive rage, made sure that the sparks and embers never died down. Not much more can be said for that, can you?
I think it was the second time I hooked up with my boys, nicola, davide, and inti down somewhere around Via Roma in Cagliari, fucking Inti had used white out to paint the complete lyrics to "Bringing it down" on to his skateboard. To this day, that is hands down some rad shit!
The last show I went to was over 5 years ago. For various reasons, some of it was finishing up a Bachelor's degree up at Rutgers, as well as becoming completely isolationist. Amongst other things, and I think that I got to a point where many other older punk/hc/sxe kids start questioning whether or not they should be that involved in these things because of age. I am not JADED and hopefully never will be, the only thing that freaks me out somewhat is when browsing the Reddit straightedge subreddit it sounds kind of like these new kids were going in the wrong direction, and had some weird ideas about what SXE is/was all about. But hey, fuck it, people can do what they will.
Back in the 80s/90s, when Judge was not together anymore I would just guage every other punk/hc/sxe band by how their shit stood up against "Bringing It Down", and No-One ever came close, except and I am sorry to say this but consider it all good and positive, except Have Heart "The Things We Carry".
Strife was close but in the end...
In a strange way Judge and how I saw Mike was like my drug of choice and a strange addiction in and of itself. Everything about Judge was perfect, then I know the guys that run doublecross website were like total Judge Homage geeks, and that made me smile deep down. I even dug the shit out of Mike Judge and old smoke. Even some of the stories I heard like, he is just some hermit up in North Jersey, I felt that. Fuck that's kind a how I be livin now.
At many different points in my life, I have come to the conclusion that I am pretty lonely, alone, and a loner. But friends and relationships are ephemeral at best for all us in the end. Just like Mike says in the video, I have become relatively much more than ok, with being alone, lonely and a loner and holding my own these days. Fuck it.
My world is my mind... Descendents!!!!
It's just beyond all beliefs and preconceived notions, that the second "Bringing it Down" comes on... TO this very moment, I just lose my shit. End of story.
The first job that I had when I retired, I had given the "Judge" discog when it came out, to this dude I worked with, and the very first words he said were... And I quote:
"Man... you have serious fucking issues"
Yup sure do.... But I am still here, and I am free as any man can muster and manage to be more than most pitiful fuckers. Keeping it Simple and Keeping it Clear!!!
I think some of us just feel and bleed life and the suffering/trauma that comes with it, a lot more deeply than most of you.
At the end of this post, I/we all have to thank Mr. Anthony Civarelli because he was the fulcrum, the dude that I think really got Mike to speak up.